Life is recently in an uproar. Wild decisions. Fast transitions. I’ve been running too fast, afraid to be left behind by my own self. Hibernating from a lot of things, trying to escape from the cage that in the first place, was built by me. I’ve been mad. Mad at those who made it before me. Mad at every possibility that did not materialize. I’ve been in a battle with myself. I’ve been looking for things but faced at different directions. Everything seems to be misled by desires and pressure to win the race.
I know I renewed my commitment to this blog but due to a series of unexpected events in my life, I was not able to maintain it. But hey! I am getting better and I hope I’ll be at my best when November 16 comes because I am invited to one of the biggest business-to-blogger events in the country: BLOGAPALOOZA! This will be a great kick-off for me. November 16 at SM Aura with a lot of different companies (list of participating companies) and bloggers. I am so excited!
I can bring one guest and I still have no idea who among my friends (bloggers preferred) to bring. If you are not a member of this blogapalooza group, you can still sign up and have your blog checked. You still have the chance to get the freebies from the companies listed and a chance to boost up your blog with online marketing and network building! They are looking for product ambassadors and online storytellers like you! :) You can register at http://blogapalooza.wheninmanila.com/
I am in Makati right now (again). It is one of the places which I think I know best since I started my career (where is it now?) here and had several jobs and gimmicks here, too.
I am now working for heygarch.com on their Makati and BGC maps. I have to stay here to be able to meet our goals quickly since time is running and we have to meet our deadline. It’ll be easier for me to meet the clients since they are based here and nearby. I’ll be staying here in one of the condos along Valero.
Oh well, Valero, a very familiar place and yes, I know it so no worries about going here. I just went straight ahead and looked for the building I was told when I noticed that I was not heading in the right direction so we (with my kabatch, Gegel), went back. That’s when we realized that yeah, we were going the wrong way. When I saw the buildings in Valero which are familiar to me, I was telling myself how stupid I was and accepted that we were taking a path to nowhere near to where we were supposed to be headed. Worse, Gegel just dug into me how much stupidity I exerted when I have the sample maps all along with me. Ahuh, I am working for a map project so I should have the copies with me and that never sank into me when we were going nowhere. Damn. That’s how I knew that I am not an expert for directions (which I thought I am).
“Life is a big stage-play” had already worn out for me. Now, it’s like a big fashion show where every person on earth is trying to make a statement whether it’s loud or not, political insights, the booming of running and fitness and what-nots. Every one wants to be seen or heard.
Social media world is like a big runway. I think most of the people have their lives revolved around the internet. Instagram first before you eat; tweet before going to sleep; check-in to foursquare when you drive; share the whole story on facebook and blogs; pin it!
I have nothing against this. In fact, I was one of those who try to keep on what’s trending. I was one of those who try to make sense out of nonsense. It’s okay. Just be responsible.
You want to be in the trend? Then follow Christina Aguilera’s advice,
Let’s get glam, don’t let the clothes wear you
Let’s get glam, it’s all in how you move
Let’s get glam, don’t let the clothes wear you
Let’s get glam, it’s all an attitude
Those are some lines from her song, Glam.
Don’t let the trends wear you. Don’t speak out opinion that is not really yours in the first place and just because it’s trending, does not mean it’s right. Just because you’re the only one who have such opinion does mean you’re wrong. Get glam! It’s all an attitude! Believe. Speak out! Run your show!
In the mirror is where she comes face to face with her fears.
Her own reflection now foreign to her.
After all these years, all of her life she has tried to be something besides herself.
Now time has passed and she’s ended up someone else with regret.
What is it is that makes us feel the need to keep pretending. Gotta let ourselves be.
Don’t be scared to fly alone.
Find a path that is your own.
Love will open every door.
It’s been a while since I actively participated here on Tumblr. Like 2years maybe? Recent posts were via instagram and just some photos. Nonsense to what I was posting when I started here. I won’t be ranting about how this blogging site changed. Things change and that’s it.
After my mind wandered for some time, I finally decided to come back here. I started by editing layout little by little and now, I changed my avatar from a drinking college girl to trying-to-be-smart lady.
Myself and I agreed not to post about my sad past too often. It’s time to post more about fashion, food, travel, political views and other growing up things. It’ll be one of ways to improve myself.
I am also rebuilding my network, yes, you read it right. I am rebuilding my network. I want more followers because I’ll be posting giveaways, too and some important tips and information. Regarding what? Not certain as of the moment. So if you could help me, please do. I will appreciate it! Ola! :)
"You should have known that I like you the moment I told you that you’re beautiful. Happy birthday."
Mehehehe. Kinilig ako nang bahagya.
The best thing about our mind is that it can take you anywhere you want to whether you’re wide awake or deeply asleep. You can manipulate the actions to satisfy your feelings. You can create the sweetest gestures you know and the next thing you know is that you are smiling out of nowhere while walking or just sitting somewhere.
The favorite flowers you want on a Valentine’s day, the favorite chocolates that you want to receive on a random day, the sweetest goodnight kiss, the hug that will secure you all throughout the night as you sleep, everything; your fantasies will be perfectly created by your own mind.
And then this bastard mind will take a toll on you. The thing about the way we think is that we tend to overthink most of the times, if not always. We think of the future and what I mean by this is that we usually think of the negative things like what if this is unreal? What if it’s just a game? Maybe this is just happening out of pity. The negative side of what ifs and maybes.
We can choose to think of the positive side. This brat brain will just push us through our limits. Geez! You soft tangible thing that hides in our head! Why don’t you just let us live in our fantasies or plain reality? Do you really have to paint the bloody tragedy?
This is the only photo that you two are together. Happy mother’s day to my loving grandma (+) and Mama. Inay, you will always be a mother to me wherever you are. Thank you for loving me unconditionally and I miss you sooooo bad.
Ma, I will always be your daughter and you will always be my mother despite what happened, happens and will happen. You know I can’t say this face to face because we’ll just end up crying.
I may not be a perfect daughter; I may always tend to go for what I want (that you always try to give ‘em to me), but you’re part of those ‘wants’. I may appear too strong, but without them, I will just be a face in crowd trying to blend in and find true love. I love you so much, my true loves! Thank you for loving me. Happy mother’s day. (Ma, huwag ka na’ng magreact kapag nabasa mo ‘to. Magdadrama ka na naman e. Bati na tayo. Sorry dahil nag-away na naman tayo kahapon. I love you.)